Sunday, 16 September 2012

The dreaded first fight

In every relationship there's always ups and downs, but of course there's always the dreaded first fight :'( Well I can say me and my mystery man have just crossed that step.

It's gotta be one of the hardest things to do managing a long distance relationship, while balancing school, sports and home life. Not only is the relationship not accepted by my parents, my parents are trying to set me up with other dates. Sometimes I wish I could drill it in my parents head that my guy is one that makes me happy. All I do is smile when I talk to him when I get to see him I'm just bouncing off the walls with excitment.

Our first fight, at least it wasn't a huge full out fight but its the maddest I've seen him and heard him. The reason behind the fight....People talking in my ear trying to ruin my relationship.
"You're being stupid he doesn't like you he just wants you for sex!"
"He's probably sleeping around on you while you're here!"
"He just says he likes you so you'll put out!"

I let them get to me! I let them get in my head! Why? Ughh I told him straight up I felt like his job was getting in the way. He needs to work to get stuff off is mind. He misses me and he doesnt care what anyone says he's not starving for sex, he plans on waiting for me.

Relationships are built on trust and I let people get in my head to destroy my trust. How could I be soo stupid. Ofcourse I trust him. He makes sure he talks to me everday he trys to see me as much as possible! I've never been happier!

Our fight ended shortly with me in tears before him saying, he was sorry he had a bad day and it wasnt me. I had no idea how to defuse the bomb that had been lit, I was scared out of my mind that I was gonna say or do something regretful. If anything this small fight has done nothing but put us back on our sweet lanes:) nothing better then love!!<3

                                                                                            ~ Madame Estelle ~

Sunday, 9 September 2012

Dating blues :(

Does anyone else find that right when you start to form a relationship with someone, another someone shows up to start something?

Why can't people show up before you open a new book? I hate how as soon as you start up a relationship like 5 other guys show up looking for one! Do girls do this to guys too? I'll apologize to any guys that I may have done this to. If I'm not classified as a bf/gf relationship but have a thing started with a guy is it really a relationship? How do I keep doors open to other guys in case this unclassified becomes more or nothing?

Dating has got to be the hardest thing to get through in life. You findsomeone who makes you happy but theres always someone on the outside poking you, trying to make your happy dissappear. Dating needs to come with a handbook! How to find the perfect guy for you, the qualities; does he make you laugh, smile, are you happy with him. Theres so much that should be right to find a perfect guy, but in reality is finding the perfect guy possible?

When you get married, how do you know he'll stay forever, how are you so positive hes the 1 out of billions? Marraige is everyones(every girls at least) fairytale, their perfect moment where everyones focused on her and him.

I ask whoever my readers are to question themselves and try to see if you know the answers to these questions...

                                                                                                 ~ Madame Estelle ~

Saturday, 8 September 2012

Summers almost over

Well its that time of year again! Summer vacation has ended and your back to sitting at desks, falling asleep in class :P

I hope your summer has been one filled with falling in love, sneaking out, staying out late at night and maybe a little mischief? After all a summer without mishchief is no summer at all right? LOL well maybe there is more to summer then falling in love and sneaking out but when it comes to a summer like the one I've had nothing can top it!!

Once I finished working in a strawberry field fighting away fellow male workers, I happened to meet one guy beside the local ice cream shack. Amazing personality an attitude to live life to the fullest and amzingly gorgeous eyes you could fall into and never make your way out.*sigh* Sounds perfect right? Well not exactly. I know I've always been attracted to guys older then me but this one guy was a little older then the others :( Say I was hmm 18 years old, I'd be exactly half is age. Totally illegal I know but totally irresistable at the same time.

After having my mother call the cops on me for staying out till 2am with this guy, I still managed to ignore it and sneak out my window the next night. Shamed I should be but for some reason I can't be. I can't call it love because its way too early for thatand who knows where guys stand on their feelings. All I really understand is that schools started again, this wonderful guy has continued on his way and even though we still text and talk on the phone I'm left wondering if I'll eve see him again.

I will try to progressivly keep updates of everything going on between school and this...well whatever me and this guy are. But for now I must sign off and make more stories :(

                                                                                                           ~ Madame Estelle ~